I hated economics but now I must admit that I should have payed better attention -_-"

Government as well, and history because now I'm lost in many issues. Geography! I am clueless for the most part, so I really wish I could have been a better student in those areas, even if I managed the A's, I apparently didn't learn much.

ooo... weee!!!   it's being thought about... it's an option now, to more than me.... oh yayy!!    will life really give me the opportunity to go?  It's what I most wish....    a life in the continent I love... and maybe even the country..... I could have a good life... wow....    if only if only please let it be so.... 

Hello............    I have just paid my tuition for UCLA (2570.41 !_! )  so... I am going to UCLA =P
um... after a month without having my computer, I started to miss it a lot..........  I want my computer back =(
I sent it to be fixed two mondays ago... yet it isn't finished yet... I'm going tomorrow [yet again] to see if it is finished... and I so hope it is... 

I have yet to get too excited about going to school... the excitement lvl has risen a bit... but not much.. like 5%.... why?  I don't know....   but at least this quarter's worries are mostly over........



later:  incorrect, worries still continue....
currently-dumb alcohol edu website............ grr... i'm out of time

Posted on xanga, felt like repeating:


Hmm... I wonder.. If I would have applied to SD, would I have been accepted too?   It's all the "rage" at school... "which college did u get into for sd?"....  I obviously couldn't answer that when it was asked to me... simply because I didnt apply... I wonder if I would have gotten in though, and where would I have been sent?   But then again, why add the hassle?  no point so it was best that it wasnt so

o yes, i know it's march 26 and the last entry I made was on march 4... 22 days isnt that much.........   there's only about 80 days left of high school, and it doesnt seem like that much to me right now either.....................   so little time left for anything these days.

I've been thinking somewhat a lot during these last few years...... I've had over 17 years of life already....   and at least 10 reasoning years....  that seems like such a long time.....

sure, some people see it as: "that's such a short time! you've barely been alive!"

But then think.. when I ask you, what will you be doing 10 years from now?  how about 17?  You answer, "that's such a long time from now, I dont know... it's too much time....."

If I could answer you coherently when I was one and you asked me: "what will you be doing 10 or 17 years from now?", I'd probably answer, I dont know... it's too far from now

and so, I've lived for 17+ years, I've thought coherently for 10+ years, and I've thought about the philosophies of life and the ideas, the point, for a very long time now... 10+ years...

and so i've had a long life... now 30 is seeming very very long for me...

"What will you be doing when you're 28?  10 years from now?  What will you be like when you come to your high school's reunion?"

I dont know... that's too long from now.... it's too much time

So... I created a few poems... nothing special at all.....    I turned them in... and it's  out of my hand if it gets published......

if any of them are good enough, I might read them at the "Poets' Corner"....... not at all sure though........  

they're probably not good at all so i am not sure.

Nearly three years passed without knowing,

You were laughing

I was waiting

Two seemingly different pathways of life

The third year changed much

It wasn’t known then

You were part of your group

And I was waiting

The competition started

The preparation was arduous

I didn’t believe so I didn’t try

But you, you were enthusiasm at its peak

I found you in my third year

I found hope, I found reason

I tried, I failed, but I tried again the next year

You showed me something new: Spirit

The fourth year came

You were gone

But I wasn’t waiting

I tried, worked, and accomplished

All because I found you

-Mary Cruz

formatting bad........ but ehhhhhhhhhh

might be fixed later, now me (excuse, I) shall go to sleep

me sleeeeeeepie!!!!!!!!!!!!

though though though though though

repetition............   sticks to one's mind



now, what to say?

got accepted into UCM
got accepted into UCD
waiting for UCB
waiting for UCLA

waiting for Oxy


wish things were much different....



randomness

now, I must create some poems for Mr. Pursley's class... and I dont want them to be just a load of....... fakeness...  I want them to represent just a tad, or maybe more....... and then, if I'm really up to it, I'll read them out on Poet's Corner...........  but that'll come later.


now then, what to write?   what to write?

Roses are Red
Violets are Blue
need more be said?
or must I continue with this too?

as can be seen, I was rather bored, and chose not to write too seriously......... ta   ta then................  I shall be back, at some point........... and hopefully I'll write a better entry next time...





~~~~~~~~~~

random thing I learned:  While making an entry, don't click random links